Unforgiveness

UNFORGIVENESS

I ran into truth today.....

unforgiveness was by her side......

they desiring to speak with me......

~ I ~

wishing to hide

" greetings to you truth......

it's always....

good to see you you" ~

"unforgiveness".....shaking my head.....

"I was certain we were through"

†

he stepped up to me........

and I backed up real quick.....

this is only an attack ....

he's a liar, full of conflict.

turning to go....

I heard ..... "no, wait Joann"

looking to see.......

this dark form of a man......

shuddering, as he spoke......

pausing, just the same......

"I am here with truth......

she brought me in HIS name."

†

glaring at truth..... for an instant felt betrayed.....

but knew...in my heart.....

truth brought him... not to stay ~

but to confront me ......

expose the truth, for all to see.....

his ways of robbing, cheating.....

~ bringing agony ~

†

he, while appearing righteous......was full of decay.....

My eyes stared.....almost in shock

somewhat in dismay...

Examining him real close............stepping up ,

could see

all the torment that I've held....

~ enabled him to be ~

†

it hurt me so deeply.......these words cannot explain....

thought I saw through his fassod....released myself from his game.

he was made up of webs,

fetters......& chains....

eyes black as coal.....

~ his cloak ~

bore a false name.

†

his body was twisted, contorted.......

as he stood before me......

all my past hurts......in a black pouch....

hung by his knee ~

†

my eyes looked at truth......

she silently looked above........

and I knew....

this was god......

coming to me in love...

†

I stammered "give me that pouch.....that I may discard it's contents".....

he drew it up to his heart....

saying, "you owe me recompense."

dumbfounded ~ I glared.....

"I owe you nothing and have already paid.....

with my heartache, suffering, tears & dismay."

"you owe me "..he spoke, "that's not enough.....

would, that I release this pouch of the unjust...."

†

his smirk made me furious......yet I trembled at the thought.....

of retrieving that pouch.......

and all that he'd bought ~

having to look inside........see everything....

~ one by one ~

for only if I examined them with truth......

could this finally......

be done.

†

I gazed over at truth....

for some sign this couldn't be real...

she looked up again.....

HIS spirit I could feel......

and I knew.......

.......I just knew.....

† there was no making any deal †

†

I stepped up with boldness......

**yet tears in my eyes**

"You don't own that you know......your full of lies....

Truth allowed you to have it.....

but only for a time ~

we both know everything in there.....

is mine!"

†

He shrank back from me a bit.....

and in the distance I could see......

two figures approaching....

~ Compassion & Mercy ~

†

as they moved in closer...and stood by truth's side....

it was evident, quite evident.....

he desired ..... to hide....

Truth wielded up her sword......and Unforgiveness.....

laid down the pouch....

I wanted it and.....

†

..... I didn't.....

in spite of myself.

†

"leave it lay...." she spoke, as the 3 comforted me.......

"It is enough that you've accepted what must ultimately be."

Unforgiveness retreated......and stood afar off.....

but only....to see....

.... if I'd come to the Cross....

for he knew if I hesitated he'd have rights once again.....

irregardless of Truth's presence.....

He was determined to win ~

†

"he'll be waiting..." the 3 communicated with their eyes...

"to see if you face us.....or barter with his lies."

They came `round me in full embrace......

I cried so damn hard, as we stood, face to face.....

For I knew.....we'd be awhile...

quite some time..... at this place.

†††

"Rest my dear child......we've got a bit of work to do....

as long as you want us.....

we'll remain here with you."

~ I ~

.....CRIED.....

and I cried....

that pouch at my feet....

my heart full of pain.....yet ~

thankful for this meet.

†

....sitting down on the ground....

weeping for my life's wrong's......

†

"I know it won't be easy.....

I know it may take long.....

but as long as your with me......

I once again.....

will be strong."

J♥

(revised 3/16/2001)

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